Guardian Angel

I used to have nightmares,
Where it has now become true,
And it’s still haunting me even I let it go everything,
I am missing the feels to be down there,
Where I can keep u safe all the time,
U were in my arm and it feels so warm,

This nightmare will not go away,
Every time before dawn memories flashes,
It kills me softly,
Owh dear god, I can’t get your plan,
Will it end soon?
Answer my prayer and I’m free to go,

I want to be down there,
I want to touch the ground,
Nevertheless, I can’t because I don’t have the right,
Will you be safe down there?
Will you be happy down there?

Owh dear, afraid you do not,
Because I’m here watching from above,
Guarding you far up here,
Smiling here when you happy,
Crying here when you sad,
Afraid no more because I’m your Guardian Angel

One of my working days

Kringg.... Alarm aku berbunyi. Aku terjaga and aku tgk jam menunjukkan pukul 7.15. Dengan tenang aku set balik alarm tue dan sambung tidur. Krinng... sekali lagi berbunyi dan kali ni menunjukkan 7.30 pagi. Aku set bali dan tidur... Kringg... Kali ke 3 berbunyi paling sakit didengar, itu menandakan sudah 7.40, nak tak nak aku gagahkan kan diri bangun jugak... Time2 nie ade jugak terpk nak buat2 demam mintak mc tapi memandangkan baru tak sampai 2 minggu kerja aku bangun jugak ar.

Terus aku mandi dan syukur baju dan seluar sudah aku gosok malam semalam. Selalu dalam around 8.00 pagi aku dah ready nak pergi kerja tapi hari ni camne ntah lambat sket 8.15 baru siap. Agak rushing ar jugak. Terus aku amik kunci kereta nak memecut ke lebuhraya persekutuan. Tempat kerja aku sangat ar dekat 10 minit drive je kalo tak jam tapi hari nie cuaca mendung seakan2 hujan membuatkan jalan raya sesak. Aku tak paham betul kenapa bile nak ujan traffic jam... 8.30 sudah berlalu, sepatutnya aku sudah berada didalam office tapi aku still kat highway.. Damn betul.

Sampai2 je kat area office aku around 8.40pg. Skang parking plak prob, parking dekat kene bayar rm6 kalo parking jauh kene bayar rm3. Nak taknak parking jauh ar, dah ar kat ctu byk giler anjing. Dari parking rm3 tue aku kene berjalan dalam 10 mins utk ke office, dan aku dah ar injured lutut.. Mmg jalan cam orang tua ar... Last2 sampai office dalam pukul 850am. Masuk2 sumer pandang, dan aku membodohkan diri aku duduk ke tempat aku.

Setelah mengatur nafas aku, aku susun2 file2 and drawing2 aku yg berselerak atas meja tue dan sambung kerja aku yg tak siap minggu lepas. Tiba2 ade je suara yg kurang enak berkata "Mane bill of quantity budak semangat yang nak datang kerja sabtu tue" Ternyata itu dituju khas pada aku. Aku jumaat lepas saje2 tanye kat sorang staff aku nie nama akmal konon2 nak wat kerja ari sabtu tapi jgn harap ar aku datang sabtu. Aku dengan tenang menjawb semula " Dun worry akak, tinggal finalize je" hahah padahal tak siap lagi, tapi aku tau kerja tue aku leh wat 10 minit je. Settle siap kerja aku, aku print and submit kat akak tue dan terus aku kluar amik cup of coffee and lepak kat pantry ngan staff2 lain. Hahaha amik mood dlu ar before start kerja. Then aku sambung balik buat kerja2 yg tak siap tue.

Terlalu tekun membuat kerja aku tidak sedar dah sampai lunch time, hahah ari nie staff department aku blanje mc d ar. Delivery lagi. Terbaik sungguh ar korang neh.. Kiteorang makan2 burak2, burak2, bace newspapers, gossip2, hahahaa. Abis tenang perut baru start kerja balik. Entah camne aku seronok plak dalam department nie. Aku awal2 masuk diorang attach kat department nieh nama ie "PHEA". Aku pk cam cool giler.. tapi actually stands for Public Health Environment and Administration. Terus perkataan damn kluar dari mulut. Dalam otak aku pk adakah aku jadi safety officer. Penat2 aku blaja 4 tahun takkan mende nie aku wat. Tapi actually department nie wat sewerage design. Mula2 aku cam menyesal gak sebab aku lagi minat nak masuk department stucture or bridge tapi skang aku seronok plak. Aku kene assign sewerage design utk project LRT KJ extention and aku kene wat 6 stations. Menarik giler and fun giler. Hahah tue yg aku tekun kat office tak sedar masa ataupun chicks2 hot lalu.

Sepatutnya aku kene siapkan BQ utk 6 stations by today sebab submit tender jumaat nie. So dengan pantasnya aku siapkan. Setelah memakan masa berjam2 di depan komputer, aku berjaya menyiapkan BQ utk station 1,2,3,5,dan 6. Then aku print dan dengan bangge nye menghulurkan kat senior engineer department tue. Senior Eng tue tgk2 hasil aku dan dengan membalaskan senyuman dia kate "farhan akak amik yg station 2 je okay, yg lain awak kene redesign balik sebab ade perubahan kat layout plan".
Dalam hati aku ' grrrrr penat je aku berpinar mata wat mende nie, Nasib baik aku tak datang office ari sabtu siapkan'. Terus aku berehat sebentar g pantry jalan2 sumer. Nak siapkan pun tak boleh sebab drought person tak siap layout lagi. So aku susun2 ar meja aku, design2 aku. Dalam pukul 5ptg baru layout baru siap... Saje je derung bagi time2 nak balik nie. Nak taknak aku buat je ar dan sedar2 dah pukul 630. Aku mampu buat 2 stations je sebab yg lain tak dapat lagi layout plan dia.

Terus aku berkemas2 balik dan terpaksa berjalan kaki jauh ke parking kereta. Kali nie aku balik banyak giler anjing... dah ar aku takut anjing. Tapi orang kat cnie cam dah biase dgn anjing2 nie je.. nak kata jinak cam anjing liar.. AAAhhh aku lalu tepi2 elak anjing2 tue.. Sampai je kat kete start terus gerak kluar. And part paling kelakar... kat tgh2 jalan kluar parking tue, ada 3 4 ekor anjing and tgh2 tue siap wat doggy style lagi. Damn first time aku tgk doggy live. Owhhh macam nie rupanya doggy style... hahahahah mmg kelakar abis ar, aku ingat nak amik camera tangkap je and post tapi byk plak kete kat blakang aku. Mmg lawak giler ar and aku takkan lupe ar.

Sampai2 je umah, aku lepak tgk tv bukak baju sumer. Makan apa yang ada sambil tgk citer kat astro tue. Settle je aku mandi2 and terus ke katil menghadap laptop seperti apa tgh aku buat skarang. Tunggu masa tido... hahaha. Almost hari2 aku camnie ar just doggy tue takde ar ari2. Huhuh bile dah kerja nie aku mmg miss giler2 waktu belajar dlu.. hahaha sure ramai orang dah cakap camni kan.. tapi mmg dow, keja penat takde life terus dah.. ari2 tunggu jumaat. hahahaha. Tapi nak wat camne mencari rezeki~ :P

So guys thanks for reading this~ just wanna share one of my working days~ PEace out

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Millionaire say
Got a big shot deal
And thrown it all away but
But I'm not too sure
How I'm supposed to feel
Or what I'm supposed to say
But I'm not, not sure,
Not too sure how it feels
To handle every day
And I miss you love

Make room for the pray
'Cause I'm coming in
With what I wanna say but
It's gonna hurt
And I love the pain
A breeding ground for hate but...

I'm not, not sure,
Not too sure how it feels
To handle everyday
Like the one that just past
In the crowds of all the people

Remember today
I've no respect for you
And I miss you love
And I miss you love

I love the way you love
But I hate the way
I'm supposed to love you back

It's just a fad
Part of the teen, teenage angst brigade and
I'm not, not sure,
Not too sure how it feels
To handle everyday
Like the one that just past
In the crowds of all the people

Remember today
I've no respect for you
And I miss you love
And I miss you love

Remember today
I've no respect for you
And I miss you love
And I miss you love

I love the way you love
But I hate the way
I'm supposed to love you back

Thank You

I will remember today,
Thank you for saying it,
Thank you for ending it.
I used to give everything,
Used to sacrificed everything,
Used to let all my guard upon u,
And thank you for how return it back the favor,
This is the dark days of mine,
I will never forget today,
But i promise that, the day will soon end.
I will rise and shine,
Be with someone who i deserve,
Be with someone who appreciate me,
Thank you for teaching me the hard ways,
I never regrets any of it,
I might be helpless now, but im getting even stronger,
I will remember exact tones and voice of how u ending it,
Yes its hurts as blade through your heart,
The pain might heal but the feel of the pain wont get away,
Thank you so much.
Please go and never comeback,
Never ever again comeback into my life because i had enough tears for u.
Im sorry for peoples around me, i left them for u.
And at the end they come to me when i really need help and where are u? u left me.
Thank you for teaching me of life.
Life is mean, Love is mean,
But i dun give up on that,
It just u came to give me the meaning of mean.
Thanks u. Now i dun want to feel it again.
Please i felt it once, enough of what u did..
Go away... Fill me with hate and anger so that i can easily forget u.

Thank you, May God Bless U

EQ VS IQ

DEFINITIONS

EQ - is a measure of your emotional intelligence, or your ability to use both your emotions and cognitive skills in your life. Emotional intelligence competencies include but are not limited to empathy, intuition, creativity, flexibility, resilience, coping, stress management, leadership, integrity, authenticity, intrapersonal skills and interpersonal skills.

IQ - a number used to express the apparent relative intelligence of a person that is the ratio multiplied by 100 of the mental age as reported on a standardized test to the chronological age. IQ is the measure of cognitive abilities, such as the ability to learn or understand or to deal with new situations; the skilled use of reason; the ability to apply knowledge to manipulate one's environment or to think abstractly as measured by objective criteria (as tests); mental acuteness; logic and analytical skills.

COMPARISONS

EQ gets you through life vs. IQ gets you through school

Appealing to reason and emotions to convince someone vs. Trying to convince someone by facts alone

Using your emotions as well as your cognitive abilities to function more effectively vs. Relying solely on your cognitive skills

EXAMPLE

Abu had a high IQ. He could reason, was analytical and logical, and had a steel-trap focus on tasks. He learned new things quickly. However, he ignored how he was feeling and how others were feeling. If things didn't do the way he expected them to, he would lose his temper and lash out at others. He was unable to relate to people who weren't as smart as he was and lacked empathy. This limited his ability to be effective in team situations even though his IQ was very high.

Ali had a high EQ. He got along well with people, and managed his own emotions well. This made him highly effective in his work, even though there were others in the firm with higher IQs. Jose was able to consider the emotional component of interactions, using both his cognitive abilities and his understanding of emotions. He was able to influence and motivate people because he understood what mattered to them and was an excellent communicator. His authenticity and integrity made him a natural leader. He was flexible and creative when faced with a challenge, and resilient in the face of temporary defeats. He was well-liked and well-respected.

KEY POINT

Your EQ has more to do with your success and happiness in life than your IQ and it can be learned.

RELATED DISTINCTIONS

Knowing how and why vs. Knowing what

Knowing how to motivate each person vs. Treating everying as if they operated the same way which they don't

Managing emotions and using them for good results vs. Being at the mercy of emotions because you don't understand them or know how to work with them.

BENEFITS

When you recognize the difference between EQ and IQ, you can work to develop your EQ. It can be learned but has often been neglected in our education both at home and at school.

Taken from :
http://www.selfgrowth.com/articles/Dunn157.html

Credits to :
Susan Dunn, MA, the EQ Coach

away

i'll be far far away and i dunno when im going to comeback. :)

empty

I filled my everyday with activities but still, i feel empty inside. Damn i hate this feeling, i couldn't bare to live like this everyday. Owh happiness please come into my life and fill this emptiness. Herm.. please come cepat2 larrrrr !!!